A Little Voice Came Leaping

"There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you."

Poem No. 52

Pretty girls in skirts
Struggle with the imprecise weight of their confidence,
Carrying it like a dead body on their backs,
Wrapping it in a blanket of terror
Dripping with the stench of blood to be bled,
And boredom.

They nod their thanks
To strangers
Who lose their own tongues in the abruptness of their complements,
And blush when they see the heap of muscles on the ground

With their arms crossed and faces straight,
Pretty girls never meet any of the eyes telling them the things they already know,
They walk on,
Occasionally stopping to seat their cadavers on park benches
And stare, blankly at all the men that sit right in those lifeless laps!
Twiddling their thumbs as they notice the chill seeping in,
Searching for Courage,
And getting up to leave when all they can find is his cousin.

Pretty girls sit quietly
At home,
On bar stools,
In loud rooms,
Conversing with no one and everyone, all at once,
Hoping that tomorrow they can just wear a skirt and be done.

“My heart cries out
Love at last I’ve found you, ooh now
And honey won’t you let me
Just be my whole life around you
…If you would take things under consideration
And walk down this hour with me
…I would love it, yeah”

—   "Cigarettes and Coffee," Otis Redding

It’s like I am watching you remember all the reasons you’re mad. I see your face fall. Feel mine falling too as your smile disappears. I see your brow furrow. Your mouth tighten into a sing line. “Ok.” And while I’m reminding myself not to push so hard, I hear your laugh. And it traps me in the mistaken belief that I’ll feel your love again soon.  

“You da one that I dream about all day
You da one that I think about always
You are the one so I make sure I behave”

—   "You Da One," Talk That Talk, Rihanna 

"Under," What is This About, AOSOON

"Just breathe in, exhale…."

It’s not much of a life you’re living
It’s not just something you take it’s given
Round and around and around and around we go
Oh now tell me now tell me now tell me now you know

Not really sure how to feel about it
Something in the way you move
Makes me feel like I can’t live without you
And it takes me all the way
I want you to stay

—   "Stay," Unapologetic, Rihanna (feat. Mikky Ekko)

“Taking steps is easy/ Standing still is hard….”

—   "You’ve Got Time," Regina Spektor

“…Living like we hate it
I have given all I can
But I can’t anymore
Freedom, I can taste it
And the truth, I need to face it
I’ve always been dedicated
But I can’t anymore”

—   "Keep Cool (Life Is What)," Major Lazer

“And don’t take this personal/But you’re the worst/You know what you’ve done to me…I don’t need you/I don’t need you/But I want you….”

—   "The Worst," Jhene Aiko

“We held hands and I remembered feeling something in the pit of my stomach, something like love or terror or the need to possess him, like a woman who is never and always alone, the terror of a woman who is in love all the time.”

—   The Adults, Alison Espach, p 204